confession

I must confess:
I never saw you coming
Until it was way too late.
Call it coincidence or 
call it an accident or 
suggest another word for fate.
I must have been looking
at things a different way;
shading my eyes from 
the natural light of day
when you approached 
from beneath my defenses
like a summons slipped under my door;
like the pounding of my heart
forgotten, ignored
and crying for more.

Will you need me any less
if I should stay?
Would you want me any more
if I go 'way
would you love me any more
(being honest)
or hate me any less
if I confess?

I must confess:
You took a path straight at me
and I was struck between the eyes.
Everywhere I was
you found me.
You were rising all around me
like the tide
No, I never saw you coming
and there never was
any reason to hide.

So let me drown with you now
take me down with you now
beneath these waves.
Be ever my ally
and my undoing
my life line and anchor
whatever weather is brewing;
my reasons for living
this life through;
holding  me together
and tearing me apart
like the pounding of my heart
forgotten, ignored.
Silent and crying no more.